bili bala..

Stress week!

It's Queen's birthday today, but there's no holiday for me. :( I'm going to have my first exam paper on Wed: Global Marketing and Friday: Business Finance. I know they may sound easy for you, but that also indicate the difficulty to get a great mark! How poorr!!

Went to the library at 10.30. Had lunch at 12.00. Fire alarm rang at 3.00. Felt so tired and went back after that.

Went to Krispy Kreme to get milkshake in winter. 10 minutes later, weather started to change. It became so windy and followed by heavy rain. Took my umbrella out and so fortunate that I can utilise my umbrella. Cross the road and reach home. How convenient!

I'm on bed now. :(

[empty] : =(

I'm speechless about things that are imminent.

Whether it is good or bad,

It is really out of my control.

Now my life has been clearly sketched with ambiguity.

Shall I leave this all to God then?

It reminds me of how f*king "s hold" u ruined everything that makes how I am now.

Can't believe I am squatting down looking at the soil filled with worms now.

I am pondering,

Would you go for something that you know will get return?

Would you go for something that you know might not get return?

Would you go for something that might be worst than before?

Would you go for uncertainty?
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I am left with nothing but ambiguity.

Can I ask for the answer?

oh dear. it's him again

I met HIM again.

Yes, it's him..

No, It's not my Dream Guy.

It's the HUGE guy who freaked me out last month when I was in the lift. Remember? At least, it wasn't that scary now as I wasn't standing right in front of the lift. *oh at least I learnt the lesson. *winks*

Today, Kathy invited a guest speaker from Slim Secret to talk about marketing the products internationally and how Sharon, the guest speaker managed the whole process with help of Austrade.

Prior to that, I thought it was just the same old grandmother story. Man, I was wrong. I reckoned that she, the founder of Slim Secrets was a successful businesswoman, mother and a wife though. She managed everything by her own and with help of her children to stick the labels on the products. That was so cute and sweet! Just reminded me when I helped my mum cutting the almond breads for sale prior to Chinese New Year. *Yes, and how I got scolded coz I either cut it too thick or too thin, but I eventually cut according to what she wanted.* :P

Oh, I have also been told that people actually visit my blog! I thought there's no readers and that really demotivates me from updating my blog.

Stay tuned. :)

I guess I'm just throwing everything that I can think of.

Last Saturday, went to Suzy's 22nd birthday party. Happy 22nd Birthday, girl! Well, pictures tell the tales, should I go further?

Dinner at 'a japanese restaurant' at Lil Bourke St. Eh? I looked sleepy. -_-"

A group picture with Suzy's birthday cake. Don't 'play play' ah. People inside the pic are multicultural, u know? From West to East to North to South part of the world. :P

Just before dinner starts. The hole in the middle of the long table is where we BBQ meat there.

Noon activity. Guess what? KTV as usual. Please ignore my standing pose. Photo error-lah

Woot. Hello Everyone! Thank you for reading and have a sweet dream :)

who says I'm emo?

I've been asked recently if I am having / had a sad relationship currently. Definitely not, I would answer. There's only 1 reason for that poems to appear. I'm just EMO. EMO.EMO.EMO. Haha. Self explanatory? Fine? Well, actually that's just a random post of the feelings that struck me that moment. Heehee.

*Woot* Hello 19th May!

This is Gracie and I'm so lazy.

So, you think I'm still emo, yeah? Fine... Look at the photo below and you'll realise that I'm still the same happy go lucky Gracie you knew. :P

Taddaaa!! Can't you realise my face is full with happiness? (oh dear!)


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Hey! I'm not done with the post yet. So, if you're on FACEBOOK, you would probably have seen this, haven't you?Seems familiar but still couldn't recognise this?

What bout after I've magnified it?

On one perspective, it is a lamp. On another perspective, it looks like a girl wearing bikini or g-string with her legs open, isn't it?

ROFL! I Just realised that I actually took that picture before last year before I actually saw it in facebook.

2 days to go.

Oh one more assignment to go and I'm ON for final exam revision again!

I just can't wait for ONE MONTH holiday! BAHhhhhhhh!!!!!

I'm looking for places to go for my winter holiday.Should I go to:

1) Sydney
2) Gold Coast
3)Perth
4)NZ
5)Fiji
6)Tasmania

or all??

And who would like to be in this tour group??

Baby I'm Yours.

I still recalled, how I felt,
When I first left my hometown by myself,
How deep you looked into my eyes,
And you told me that you will wait for me.

It was just a day when I thought it was already a month
since I last met you.
I'm dying so much to hold your hand
like how you used to hold my hand.

It was already decades now,
That we are still in the same position.
Are we just used to being like this?
Or are we just afraid to change?

The nearer I am to you,
the further we are.
The more we love each other,
the more suffering we get.
But deep inside our heart,
we know that we need each other.

How much I miss you?

heart,

where are you? :(

don't wear black helmet

As usual, I went for a study group for Biz Finance today.

Came back around 6 ish and as I entered the lift, I see no one, and I started thinking that I'm going to have McDeluxe for dinner later. WHeee..

Just not long I entered the lift, the lift stopped and the door opened. Immediately I thought I reached Level 13 but, instead of Level 13, it reached level 3!

Now, this is climax!.

Yes, the door opened and guess what I saw?


Guess!! Guess!! Guess!!

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I saw a relly HUGE MAN standing RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME




WITH A BLACK HELMET ON HIS HEAD!!!!

OBviously not like this!


I MEAn, he's really HUGE!

I was taken aback! And Yes, You''re into imagination on HOw FUnny I looked LIke.

"wuah! Like Arnold swatchnager . Ops Schwarzenegger I meant!. Some more it's just like when you watch Alien vs Predator or what when the lift open, you see a BIG guy with BLACK HELMET which looks exactly like alien standing in front of you."


Or maybe his body posture looked similar to this, and in a dark environment, can u not OPEN YOUR EYES BIG?

eg: He was Taller than me few HEADS.

what is (a) to (j) ??

Happy Easter everyone!

I've been dissapearing for a week and a week passed JUST LIKE THAT! Imagine how fast!

Nevertheless, I've been good and utilize my time well enough so that "REGRET" doesn't appear in front of me. Still, 1 week is not enough for me. :(

I talked with mum few days ago and she claimed that time was running fast too in Malaysia! So, I guess the earth is really spinning faster then? 0.O?

anyway, I went to Puffing Billy, Yarra Valley and Healesville Sanctuary just few days ago!

Pictures will be uploaded soon. Too many pictures to resize. How tiring!

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My assignments and homeworks are starting to get pilled up! Someone please help me to alleviate the burden. I'm just too scared to think of Commercial Law, Biz Finance, Glo. Marketing and Products Innovation Management. And I can't wait to finish all the assignments too!!!! Sony and Krispy Kreme and Sony, please do motivate me. :)

In mean time, I know I will be heck busy like bees cos:

a) Attending Developing Leader's Day
b) Global Marketing test
c) State Conference
d) Law Test
e) PIM assignment DUE
f) Global marketing assignment DUE
g) PIM test
h) finance test
i) Law cases summaries and flowchart
j) Co op

Someone tell me to cool down please..


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transformation

So obviously that I have not been updating my blog for the past few weeks. I have been really busy and stress although it is just week 5 .

Oh, I realised that I changed after I went back to Penang last year. I mean in terms of personality changes.

My little sis and mum was telling me that I changed after I went to Melbourne for about a year. I was driving that time and all I could think of is that I changed in a negative way. Surprisingly, I was told that I was less hot tempered and became even gentle. LOL!! Seriously I never thought that I was that baddddddd before I went there and I reckoned it should be due to my work pressure. *winks*

After I came back to Melbourne, I realised another changes. I became more diligent in things that I do. Like, I don't used to have group study and I'm having group study even beginning of week 2. I don't spend time at uni that much and now, I'm spending time at uni almost everyday, the reason being I have group assignment meetings. I don't study at night and now I regularly coming back late due to group study. Sounds like a drastic change! Even eldest sis said that too. :D

I guess I was just being another Yes Girl, transformation of Yes Man by Jim Carey!.

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My energy is dried up now. I felt lethargic.

Keratosis Pilaris: A new info for you

For those of you who know me better, you realize that there are red bumps around my upper arms. Those red bumps have followed me for years, probably 6 years ago. I realize that those bumps were actually f*king irritating that I wished to burn those skin and God would let me grow a very nice and bump less skin.

Due to that, I couldn't really wear nice tops. Sigh. And that's really pathetic. So, last year, before I came back to Melbourne, I thought, " I should spend money and see the skin doctor"

For the first time, I went to Lim Skin Clinic and were charged for about RM130 and were given 3 bottles of cream and a soap. I used that for 1 month plus and I see no difference.

So, I gave another try and went to Tropika Clinic and were told this is Keratosis Pilaris (KP) and it's due to hormone. *But that doesn't mean I'm hormonal imbalance, alright?*

I was stunned when I was told that this could follow me till I reach the age 40s. WTF? I was also given Cetaphil Intensive Moisturizer to alleviate the stupid bumps. That cost me about RM80. Still not much effect. :(

I goggled myself and I found that many people actually got KP. Some even have it on buttocks and legs, and I got this on my upper arm. :(

Guess what I found?

KP Duty by Derma Doctor, a moisturizing theraphy for dry skin and exclusively for KP. I read the comments and were so ecstatic that,

"I FINALLY FOUND A TREATMENT!!!!!!!!!!"

BUT, BUT, BUT..


THIS IS ONLY SOLD IN US..


GosH!!! And there's no shipment from US to Australia. HOWWW? HOWWW??


Someone please help me!!!!

How possible can I get that?

Another saturday

Hello, everyone!!

Isn't it good to see Gracious back on track--->blogging?

It's been exactly fourteen days since I came back here in Melbourne. The best thing is, the weather was good when I reached here. It was cooling like the day I left Melbourne. Sometimes, I felt that I did not even leave Melbourne back to Malaysia. 3 months holiday were gone just like that. *blinks* ahh I miss home now..

It's raining outside now and the whole city looks so gloomy now. I woke up at 9.15am and I thought, "Should I go and continue my dreamland now?"

Let's get back to reality now!

Well, facing the beginning of the semester is not really my cup of tea. Most time, I see new faces and I thought to myself, "That's when my friend from previous semester ends and new friends from this semester comes". I meant some friends, ok? A friend of mine told me that it's good to extend the friendship here, but in my perspective, I prefer little friends but with long term relationship. I don't want hi bye friend anyway.. Well, that's just my opinion. Why wanna care right?

I'm more than ecstatic that I'm having fun with friends I know this semester. At least, it's not the worst compared to what had happen to me in my first semester. You should know what happened if you are my close friends. *winks*

Well, my classes are pretty organized too. 4 days of classes. Phew.

But, It's also the month where everything are in doubts.

Talking about my co op, I'm clueless. What am I gonna do in that company? Will I find a job here? Which company I'm going to work with? When can I find the job? How much I'm going to get at least to keep my stomach full? After all, my main point is to get a job here. Whether low or high pay, that doesn't matter to me anymore.

I went to RMIT Career Fair few days ago and I came back with disappointments. I was told by the representatives that they only want PR.

Sigh.


Anybody wants to adopt me? Please.....? :O

to the witches..

it's just the beginning of the year and the feeling of anger has already built its territory in my heart.

you know, some people *may* ( i mean may..) want to try to help you, but it ends up hurting you even more. Are they really trying to help you by finding the truths?

I do not understand why!, but everything supposed to turn out great! and extremely great. It takes a long time to build trust and support, but it takes a word or a minute to turn trust into suspicious act.

You tried to be 'friendly' , but indeed you were just a witch who couldn't shut your mouth up. You brought up this whole disaster and you are leaving without cleaning all the mess. You were so jealous that you couldn't swallow every good food. WTF?

You were so helpful that you even dragged me to death.

Why do people became so talkative and did not use their brain when they talk?

the anger is still within me.. OucH!!

i don't like this.

At the beginning of every semester, good students got tad anxious of having to create their best timetable. You know, especially when you have clash time, that was the beginning of anger and 'manchang-ness'.

Being a good student to myself *ahemm*, I woke up at 4am (equivalent to 7am Aust time) to create my timetable since it is scheduled to come out on internet at 6am. I guessed not many will wake up so early to create, right? In fact, I was soooo WRONG!.

Just an hour, most of the classes that I favor were full!! FULL!!!

I had no choice but to sit on the computer earrrrrly in the morning for 1 hour to arrange my timetable. End up, I was thrilled that it was done nicely!.

I went to my dreamland back.

When I woke up to check my timetable again, I was shocked to see that one of my lecture class has been canceled due to some server problem.

Gosh. Does that mean I need to wake up at 4am again tmr????

Holy......

In the mean time, my Valentine photo. :)

I woke up in the morning..

.........and I know that I do not need to say more than me looking at the

BIG BIG gift...... :)

Wah so long already!

Dear readers,

Wow! It has been almost 3 weeks since I last updated my blog. I must've been real busy! Weehee!!.

Just to simplify this blog, these are what I did for the past 3 weeks.

1. Bro got married on 7th of February 2009. That 1 week was full of excitement and everyone in the family got real nervous and stress as they needed to handle lots of stuffs. Oh, that includes, friends and families' punctuality at the wedding dinner. But of course, I was assigned tasks too. I had to create a Flashback video for both the bride and groom. It took lots of effort to do that, but guess what, it did not turn out really that well. I would actually point my finger to the fault of the wireman that day. I tested the video at least 4 times prior to the dinner and it went well. However, they did not play the video at the Right and Precise time.. Bad lighting too. Aih, what happens has already passed. Look ahead and I give my best hope and sincerity to both of them. I'm still waiting for the official photos to be sent to my house. Kindly wait,k.

2. Playing with the 2 Kids on weekdays. Went out on weekend. That's what I did almost everyday!. I was really glad that I managed to watch this 2 kids grow up. From baby to crawling and walking. OH yes, Aunaun runs too!!. It has been 8 months since I last saw him, and without realization, he was becoming more horny. If he forgot who his first kiss was, I would tell him in the future that, "It was either me, fern,ling or my mum". I meant mouth to mouth kiss k. Like wanna kiss u continuously... Yingz on the other hand, often attacked everyone with his iron head.
3. Everyday eat here and there.. So when u see me, I happen to turn out cute.. :) Do I need to explain more??

chinese new year 2009

Without realising it, it was another year to collect angpows from relatives and married couple. Gong hey fatt choy everyone! :D

Just another early in the morning, I woke up happily knowing that it is the best time of the year. It’s the time I received lot angpow..

Still, this year’s Chinese New Year is just another ordinary day. Woke up, wished parents/grandparents, shower, and dressed up, relatives came, received countless ang pows, lunch, family portrait, visiting another relatives, eat, visit, eat, visit, eat and eat…. Then sleep. Do these seem familiar to you?

Anyway, it has been our family culture to have vegetarian dishes on the first day of CNY. Mum woke up earlier than everyone to prepare for these meal. Thanks mum!

This is black fungus with glass noodles and mushroom. Hm.. I give this 3/5. Mum.. please put gravy...

Oh how I love this! This is the so called faked fish, and faked duck meat. This, I give 4/5.

Though this seem ordinary, this is the favorite of everyone in the house. Yummy! 5/5

Shall I leave the best thing for the last then? This is mum's number 1 vegetarian curry with potatoes and faked chicken. I'm still thinking of this curry now as I type now... :D

Oh did I forgot the rating?? 5/5 for this!


Aun Aun never forgets to visit us even on CNY!. It was 4 days since we last saw him and by the time we saw him, he seemed to have grown up in 4 days!

He changed his way of dressing. He wore the Pumpkin Patch shirt I bought and a 3/4 pants. That was way too cool. Guess what, he even waxed his hair. LMAO.



Guests like that spot to take pictures. Even AunAun and his sister wanted too. Aren't they lovely?


AunAun tried to dance with his sister. Jazz? Tango? Cha Cha ok ar??

There I go.

Ops, I was so busy to update my blog! 2 kids to play with, too many letters for me to type, friends to go out with and many more.

So, as mentioned in the previous post, I went to Kampar, one of the town area in Perak.

There goes my first time experience. *Sounds like losing virginity* >.<

Just few days ago, my brother, the wife and the big family, mum, sis and I went to Kampar at Perak. Like many other people think, " What Perak has? Why the hell did you go to Perak??"

Yes, that's exactly what I thought initially.

It's exactly Christmas Day that day.

I was truly stunned and amazed that my sis in law's mum had prepared so well that she did a trip itenary from Day 1 to Day 3 for all of us! So well organised!

Upon arriving at Kampar, we were treated to a famous seafood restaurant at Tj Tualang. We had the big tiger prawn steamed with Brand's and I had countless appetizing prawn.. Yummm..

You see, I was so busy eating that I forgot to take pictures of it. HeeHee..

That was the time that my mum and I were so busy doing food shopping; the famous biscuits and Sak Keh Mah.

Before we checked in at hotel, we headed straight to Gua Tempurung (Tempurung Cave) to experience water rafting.

I was one of them who were so anxious for this water game as I am a bad swimmer. To be precise, I don’t know how to swim.

“That’s too dangerous for me”, I thought.

Once I stepped into the boat, I felt myself so challenging!

5 of us were inside the boat and I reckon we really burnt a lot of calories!

Water rafting is sooooo nice that I want to upgrade myself to Grade 4 and 5.

Guess what, the hotel that we stayed in is so cheap. A 4person bed's deluxe room and it only cost 200RM plus. It's also the one and only in Kampar.

The very next day, we went for Hot Spring. Not exactly hot spring, but this is really interesting. The water flow from the waterfall were cold, however, as you put your leg inside the sand, you felt heat and it was really burning as if you got electric shock. This is due to some earth theories I don’t know. LOl. Yes, that’s my first time again besides water rafting and eating so many prawns.

Everyone had fun including bro who got so obsessed by going in the middle of the river to shoot a portrait picture of my sister.

me, mummy and sis self shot

see?? the water is so hot that you can even boil eggs.

Before we headed back home, we went to the pomelo farm, passing by Tanjung Rambutan. It was also the first time I visited the biggest pomelo farm at Tambum. Even the god of food from Hong Kong visited this place. For pomelo lovers, you have to come here!

Pomelo lovers...

Mum was really overwhelmed.

And not forgotten me holding up two pomelos…

Perhaps, I shall upload more pictures in the next few entries.

Shit, I've so many things to blog. My Mamma Mia stageplay, New Year and many more.. Sigh.

This is weird.

I wonder if I have hormonal changes since I came back here last week.

Is it due to the humidity and the temperature in Malaysia,

That I've hair loss now, at the age of 21?

Ops, I mean hair drop.

It was as if my hair is experiencing autumn here.

I washed my hair and I can't even count how many hair that I've dropped!

I slept, and I woke up the next day shockingly that I see my bed full of hair.

I sat down having breakfast and mum saw strings of hair on the floor.

I changed shampoo, but it's still the same.

Is something wrong?

Please tell me...

You don't wanna see Gracie become hairless soon..